Objects in mirror are closer than they appear.

1. The calendar in my room has not been turned since February. 

I think that’s an example of how little I’ve been maintaining myself. Just as my calendar has lost touch with time, I’ve lost touch with myself. I’m going day to day, barely keeping up, without a larger vision of what life should be like or a larger vision of what I should be doing or how I should be acting.

3. I am so unmotivated lately. Nothing really seems to matter anymore. I don’t have any sense of urgency or necessity in doing anything. I need something definite, something black and white and clear to deal with.

2. It’s kind of ironic that I’m pushing away the people that I care about the most, and acting friendly and nice to all the people I don’t care about.

Looking at the friendships I developed over this year, almost every one of them feels like they are fading away. And I seem to be doing all the wrong things to try to revive them. I see myself doing many of the same mistakes I’ve done before.